Dear Angela:

For the purpose of understanding your post, so that I may be of any help,  I have three questions regarding the very beginning of your post:

You wrote: “If I wanted to travel, I made friends out of state and visited them on cheap airfare and stayed with them”- do you mean that you made friends for the purpose of staying in their homes for free while you visit their state/ travel?

You wrote: “If I couldn’t have the man of my dreams I found several men who each embodied one of my favorite characteristics of him”- did you tell each man that you are dating several men at the same time, and that each embodies one of your favorite characteristic?

You wrote: “If I hated my job I would let myself get fired and collect unemployment”- do you mean that you underperformed your job so to bring about being fired by the employer and collecting unemployment (which is possible if you are fired but not if you quit)?

anita