Hi Ayrton,

well, I was very moved to read your story as I find a lot of things in it that I can relate to – although I’m a lot older than you. What you are going through is maybe more common than it appears to be to you right now.   I know what you mean about observing others who seem to find their path in life early on, and then just get down to following it.  As someone who has tried a LOT of things (some with more success than others), and had a lot of ups and downs in life – I feel I can say, some of us take longer than others to find where it is that we ”fit”.  since I only have five minutes left on this public library machine I will say one thing that could help you a lot: get to know yourself, what youre good at and what motivates you. do this like its your job, approach it seriously and use all the tools you can find on and offline to help you. Take as long as you need, the more comprehensively you do this one task – the more it can help you. I reccommend What Colour is Your Parachute by Nelson Bolles, the back section. Ignore the religious section if need be. The rest of the book is excellent value, no matter what your spiritual beleifs are. This book comes out nearly every year, because its full of useful techniques to know yourself better – and hence help you to choose the direction (s) in life that will most benefit you. But also ask people you come across too, ask anyone that you think might help you with a story about what they did to get through a similar difficulty. All the very best to you!