Sorry I have not responded. Still don’t have internet!! 🙁 lol.

I meant. My ex mother was so happy to see us and be going on this trip. She was welcoming and friendly. But My ex he just seemed like he didnt want to be bothered. I felt unwanted by him when i was there. I tried to bring it up to him but he just hardly  says much and still doesnt act any different. It makes me feel pushed away and hurt, because here I am trying so hard to be communicating with him and open and trying to meet his family. Since we broke up.. He has tried to talk to me a few times but i just havent really said much because i feel hes only talk to me out of his own satisfaction. If that makes sense?

My anxiety has been better since we broke up.. But i often feel whenever im in a relatiopship i get such bad anxiety. I always fear the person will leave me or that im not enough for them. I try to be the best girlfriend I can be so that I dont end up feeling that way but I am usually left feel unappreciated or drained. Its very hard to find balance in a relationship for me. But I just desire close connections and love so much. I feel very alone in this mind set. I’m trying hard to just go with the flow of things…but I dont know I feel very confused.

Thank you