Thank you both for answering me again

PearceHawk: i think im a jealous person and sometimes i can feel a bit possessive but i rarely act on it. Sometimes i can be angry and that, but i would never forbid my boyfriend doing something. Even when i have felt jealous i have told him. The only thing i asked him not to do was liking hot pictures of hot girls on instagram because it affected my self esteem, he understood and he stopped doing that. I dont think i am a crazy girlfriend. Sometimes i still feel jealousy and that, but i know it isnt right. I have talked to him about this, told him about how i felt jealous but i also told him that i knew that feeling that wasnt good.

I know jealousy is a bad thing, but sometimes i cant help but feel it. I really want to stop feeling this way. Deep down i know this jealousy is based on my low self esteem, and he knows it. I told him that i know i have to work on my self esteem because my sometimes fear of him cheating its just based on that. He is a nice Guy and a great caring boyfriend so there isnt anything that he could make me feel he is cheating on me, its my problem.

However, even when i know sometimes i can be a jealous person, i have NEVER sneaked through his phone, his texts or something. I do, and i feel guilty, stalked him. Who he followed on instagram or things like that. He followed an account that posted pics of boobs (and im very embarassed of my boobs because they are little, even though he always tells me he loves them) and i was like passive agressive about him following that account on twitter because he was with me when one tweet of this account appeared on his timeline. He, in the end, stopped following them and i know it was because of me. Some weeks later i knew that what i did eas wrong and i told him that i was sorry and he understood again.

Also, if he’s out with his friends i really dont mind. Sometimes i fear that maybe he id cheating on me and i get so anxious, but as i said, its because of my low self esteem.

In conclusion, everytime i have felt jealous i have talked to him, and like that time that i was passive-agressive about him following them and he unfollowed them, i ended up realizing that what i did was wrong and i said i was sorry.

I know im not perfect and i have to work on my self esteem and that will cause me feeling less jealousy (i think)

Do you think i can change or that im a bad person because of the mistake i made about that account on twitter? I always try to talk him about my feelings, lately more than ever because i know its better than keep it.

I love him and i want to stop feeling jealousy. Do you think i can change or that i will be that type of crazy girlfriend? I have to say that my boyfriend is like you. He is NEVER jealous. And that says a lot about him. As i said before, he is the greates Guy ever and i admire him so much. I wish i could be like him in every way. I love him more than anyone, because he is so good to me, you just cant imagine, thats why i want to change and be as good as him, because he deserves it.

To anita: the feeling of being a bad person started as soon as my intrusive thoughts and OCD started.