In my home town it’s problematic for finding job , if you find somethin’ you work a lot for really small amount of money . It’s in whole county problem for work. Yes , i’m living with my parents , still tension is in air all the time , there is not so much conversation between us. I quit college bcs i couldn’t focus on my study bcs my sister who lived in same town where i’ve been studying was in a lot of problems , she was in relationship with guy who had a lot of troubles , my family haven’t accept him and that relationship , he had a lot of mind problems and he was draining life from my sis.  Everybody were asked ‘ What is with her?’ Everybody was playing investigations and fill my head with bad things so they started big doubt in me about her. Today i don’t trust her , i love her she is my older sis and in other hand we don’t have good relationship … In that time my father been working on black in Paris , he was absent , he worked a lot got no money or just something and he waited and worked and form year to year he waited things to change even if everybody knew nothing will change and at the end he was dumped by his boss with no payment … He couldn’t do nothing about it bcs he worked on black ….  My mother have her mind problems since i spend most of time with her while i was in elementary and high school ,  we were fighting of nothing , for example i got ready to go out and she starts fight and since i know every time i was got out mad .. She also made drama and since we were quarrel for hours she at the end make things like she is not good , staring at one point and so on …. She did also to my sister when , since i was younger i watched that ….  Personally i was different , i was happy child even with all that happening , i played guitar , i drove rollerskates , ice skates , i drew … I’m always trying to do something , but since 4yrs ago i’m lost , i don t find pleasure in things i’m doing … and yes i have family around me , some friend but i feel alone