Anita,

I think I did not expressed myself correctly at that time. I apologise.

K University as a university – I love it. I just do not like the people inside K University, Korea as a country and Korean people as well. But I do not dislike MY university.

KU have a special meaning for me … I worked so hard to get in here, K University is a real proof of my blood, sweat, and tears during high school. It is not just a university, and it was not just my parents that invested in here, I also invested myself in this university.

I would never hate KU. I am very proud to be a KU student, that will always remain as one of the greatest achievement in my life. I have no regrets of being a KU student.

I only have regrets of coming to Korea.

I think the biggest reason why it was so hard and still hard for me to leave Korea is because of my university, there is no other reason.

You might not know how HARD I had worked to get in here, but I know.

You cannot imagine how difficult it was for me mentally and physically to become a KU student. How many times I have cried while studying (yes, it is possible to study while crying) – how many times I prayed so earnestly for this opportunity, how I still went to high school during a flooding, that describes how desperate I was, to be a student here.

Dropping out of KU is not about betraying or disappointing my parents … it is about disappointing myself as a person.

Throwing KU away will be like throwing myself away. For 19 years, going here was my goal.

Who is Monica without KU?

I was not able to answer that, that is when I knew that I am nothing without KU.

and moving to Singapore is not going to make me able to answer that question as well.

Maybe even worse, I will get no validation at all in Singapore, going to a university that is far below KU.

My problem lies on the fact that I despise Korea and have no real friends here. That is THE REAL problem here.

I have made a deal with my parents to solve the problem – that every single time that I feel too overwhelmed or stressed out in Korea, I can go home to my home country (even for only a short period of time like 3 days during the weekend) and my parents will visit me every time that they have a long holiday or during special events like my birthday.

I feel like it is quite fair for both parties.

For your information, the plane ride from Korea to my home country is around 7 hour. The price is not very cheap, but my parents are willing to make that little deal with me. That means a lot to me. It was a compromise from both side.

I will stay and finish my studies, while my parents allow small and short visit every single time that I feel lonely and depressed.

Hope that clears things up.

-Monica