Dear Miss Healing:

I like your user name, Healing.

It reads heartless on his part, to block you from accessing him after your release from a psychiatric facility, right after an attempted suicide. The bigger picture is that he was in a relationship with you for months while you were very depressed, and you broke up with him prior because ” I felt like I wasn’t contributing to anything in our relationship, instead, I was dragging him with me straight to a dark bottom”-

If you were correct, and for months he was being dragged into a dark bottom, then blocking you was indeed a quick blocking action but slow development.

I can read only your post here, not his. I wonder how he has felt. I don’t know, and neither do you. Instead of looking for an apology (“I don’t want to push him away by insisting on meeting or getting an apology”), I would be looking for information, his input on his experience during the months of your depression leading to the blocking. With that much needed information, you can decide on your next move.

anita