Dear Anita

Two days ago my condition got worse. I had difficulty breathing at night. Turned out my new job was a mistake because they tricked me when it comes to money and possibility of leaving earlier than 8 months. I had a panic attack and barely slept. I feel like I’m in a trap.My relatives say it’s gonna be fine and they’ll help me but I’m so scared I have to work there and can’t leave. Today I’m better. I went for a walk and started some routines as you said. It’s true it helps. Gives me feeling of safety. I use to drink tea in the morning and meditate while doing this. still  hard for me to meditate but I’m trying.

Just those moments of panic, I have difficulty dealing with. can’t think logically and calm down.