Mainly how to move on, especially when through all of it you’re still “in love” (I use that loosely because I think it’s just attachment at this point). And how to deal with the conflicting emotions, because there are still times I feel like part of us falling apart is my fault, although I can still recognize that the relationship was doomed from the beginning. The cognitive dissonance is eating me alive & keeping me in a loop. I just want to move forward & trust myself again to love because this was honestly a traumatizing experience.