Anita, thank you. From the day that she said yes to the other guy, my feelings for her have grown exponentially. Seems to me that the grief is getting worse, the memories are getting stronger and they are affecting me in every possible way. I am not enjoying anything around me, even the usual stuff that I used to. There is zero smile on my face. Every instance that I get, I imagine her in my life. The travel, the eating out, the boring stuff, the lying around on the sofa, watching “Friends” (our favorite show together). I am also imagining so many other things that I wouldn’t usually think of, like looking for a new home together, getting a puppy together. I do not think the intensity would have decreased but that is just my current opinion. Pretty much, I am imagining a “perfect” future with her, but now she is gone and I am getting sucked into the whirlpool of bad emotions. She is coming to meet me today. We will spend a few hours together. She said she misses me a lot. I do not know what is going on in her head. Is she just trying to comfort me in this difficult time? What am I supposed to do to just erase all of these new emotions. I do not want to be feeling this way. Not for long anyway.
Help me move on please!
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