Thank you both!
Eliana, I think this is something to do with him just trying to push me away and not ‘bother’ him. I just wish I could get through to him that it’s ok to feel this way and not have to walk away. Everything else is great, but I may not have a choice to ‘let him go’, as he technically has broken up with me. When I see him in a few days, I’m not sure if he’s still of the mind that he needs more time, and if that’s the case, I don’t know what to do. I can’t lose him. I’m hopeful though that it’s a good sign he wants to see me. When we confirmed a day, he said he hoped my week has been ok, and said he thought about me a lot.
At the same time that I want to ‘win’ him back, I want him to know how much this hurts me.
Anita, my speech, is basically somewhere along the lines of:
-I have missed you so much.
-I’ve been very upset, lonely, sad, angry, and i’ve been worried about you too. I’ve had so many thoughts and emotions running through my mind, but I want you to know that I’ve realized how crazy I am about you, and how much I love you.
– I really want to fight for you and us, and I’ve never wanted to fight so badly for something.
-I feel like there might be more going on with you than you’ve told me or expressed, but I don’t think whatever it is, is worth losing us over. I don’t want you to have to go through this alone, and I really want to be by your side, even if you don’t think have much to offer me at the moment, because when you do, you’re amazing.
-I know life is hard, and you might not be in the best place right now, but you’re worth every second of seeing this through, and going through this with you.
-You told me once to make you work for me, and that Im worth it. Well thats exactly how I feel about you and I will work for you. I know you’re scared, and I know part of your hesitation are walls that you have up, but it’s me, you know me, you can trust me, and I’m here with you to figure things out.
I believe that true love is something you need to fight for and every relationship takes work, and think we have true love between us.
-I need you to be willing to fight for me too.
-because I deserve to fight for a love that is reciprocated back to me.
Those are just some points that I hope to get across….and I hope he feels the same way.
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