I am feeling down tonight after a very successful day at my job because after I did my job perfectly my manager had to remind me of a past failure of mine as a customer. This is after me coming in on my day off. So now I feel like a failure but guess what…whatever is trying to take me down is going to lose. I had something else traumatic that I had to handle last week at my other job out of the blue. It seems getting a new job and the possibility of success brings out the obstacles saying no you will not succeed. When I am making little money and in a rut nothing horrible happens to me unless I tried to change that. When I try to improve myself that’s when the obstacles really happen. Well guess what??? Nothing is going to stop me from improving my situation. I am beyond playing around with that…even if I have to put up an imaginary wall around myself I will not fail. If no one can touch me than I will not fail and all the worthwhile people are getting ready to knock me down because they don’t even want me to have the basics in life let alone anything more. Guess what???? No matter what they throw at me I am not going to lose. Get used to it. The people who want to knock me down are not going to win. I am upset right now and crying and they will do almost anything to make me cry and get upset in public but I won’t do it. If I have to take every herb, drink tea, to keep me from thinking about what they are trying to do to me I will. They are not going to win.
I would also like to add that many men do not respond to my thread because I call them out on what they get away with….and that’s the truth. They are not afraid that they will be hated. They couldn’t care less about someone like me…and you know what…I was a good person too with talent, intelligent and pretty. Their only problem with me is I talk. I don’t think I have responded to anyone in this thread without being grateful for their input. I am not buying that men are afraid they are going to be hated…they just don’t have the time someone like me. Let’s be real.
It’s very important for me to know that people know that I know the truth and the truth is that men are not afraid of posting in my thread. Men couldn’t possibly care less about me.
I am going to put my game face on tomorrow though. I am upset tonight but I will be unbeatable tomorrow. No one will get to me. I will not let them hurt me.
I am upset tonight thow. If only I could become cold and unfeeling then I would be successful.
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