Thankyou for your reply. Yes I understand what you mean but that is not how a relationship works. You forgive and you understand your partner. I guess I will regret that day for the rest of my life because I have now lost the man I love and the man I want to spend my life with. I love him with every part of me and I can’t imagine the day I won’t. I’m hurting so much without him in my life it’s very hard to accept he is gone. I don’t know how I will live with this now.