Anita,

When we ended our relationship in April of 2016 we still kept a close contact, too close of a contact. It was not until October of that same year that we finally cut all ties and so the animosity began. During the actual relationship period I would not say we  wronged one another, it was a great relationship which did not flourish because of his insecurities.  We did however wrong each other after cutting off contact in October.

That October he cut all ties with me because I messaged him via messenger on my birthday (December.) A simple text that read; “Hope all is well, I miss you and will always love you.” The profile photo was of me in Vegas from late October. He accused me of sending the message with the intention of him seeing that photo and triggering him. The words I said were nto not the trigger, it was seeing me “move on” and do things without him. Note that these were his exact words once again this past time, I “triggered him” by saying hello to the mutual contact.

After that incident he blocked me from everywhere and this is one thing I knew from him to have a tenancy to do with women in his life. I felt like everything I had ever done for him meant nothing. I felt like the love we expressed and shared in the end was literally thrown into the trash as a never existing memory. It hurt me, deeply, to see how I was just another woman on his blocked list. This was where the tension between us started and grew to what it is. I got my apology, what I though I needed to finally have good closure and peace with this whole ordeal, truth is, I don’t.

He moved on to another  relationship and seems to be doing good for himself, which I am happy for him. I do realize that this is in part to me having been the one who truly fell deeply, madly in love with him, so much to the point I swore he was THE ONE. I accept that this was not his case and I am okay with that, that is the risk we take when we love so deeply and carelessly without measuring a possible negative outcome.

I just want to permanently find the closure to this whole ordeal and move on in peace. I am one who tends to always forgive but never forget. Is that my problem ?- Not letting go of the pain he caused?