Your comment about “I caused this cancer” also made me reflect on my past 2 yrs of miscarriages. One can not completely get over the feeling of guilt that, “it’s something that I did wrong that caused this.” One of the ways that I learned to cope was to educate myself on this subject. I read lots of blogs, YouTube documentaries of other women miscarrying and also visited with many women who experienced multiple miscarriages. The phrase that was actually the best for me to hear was, “it’s ok to miscarry” in your situation, it may be, “it’s ok to get cancer.” It’s hard to say this statement! Because we want to be angry and yell, “no it’s not ok!” But, somehow, I eventually started believing the words, accepting them, and myself. I stopped being the victim. “It’s ok to have bad things happen, here’s my strategic plan of how I am going to cope and fix it to the best of my ability” I do believe that people are put in place in our lives. Like the old saying, “for a reason, a season, and a lifetime.” The people that I kept meeting and visiting with I believe now were put there for that reason. To help me cope and understand. I didn’t realize it at the time when it was happening, but I do believe a power bigger than me did that!!! Reflect back on your past for those type of people that may have helped too