Dear Anita,

Like ive said before she now comes every day and spends time with us, i don’t really spark up many conversations anymore like i used to, im just being very neutral with her. I am going to go have some blood tests done especially for my thyroid and the hospital is quite far away and she offered to take me, i took her up on that offer lol, She has also started to be a lot nicer to mum, she must have felt bad for what happened. She is my sister after all and i do love her but i need to stop showing her that she has any power over me whatsoever.

I also have a little update for you, remember i told you i was waiting for my partner to tell me about the opening of the application to come to my country for his deployment, he sent me a picture saying it has opened up for near the end of this year, but apparently theres another one that is due next year. Which means if he doesnt get this one then i have to wait another year and i really dont know if i want to. He has been quiet about it all to be honest, he just said he has applied for the one for this year, i dont know if this is true, quite messed up at how little trust i have for this man 🙁 But no one can blame me.

Blessings

x