Dear calisister:

Good thing you had a good time hiking as well as a good time with C. I suppose there was a benefit contacting C: you enjoyed yourself and you want to do things with her because it is unsafe to do those alone.

You wrote that there is no benefit to speaking to your parents, but then you expressed that there is a benefit, that if you stop contact with them, you will be “… actually alone”. So there is a benefit, in your mind. You perceive your life as it has been (“The Blur”) as better than it would be without your parents in it.

anita