hi anita,

thank you for caring for me and thinking of me. with regards to sexual stuff, we have not talked about my traumas with that. (emotional traumas that stem from my MOTHER). that being said, (feels awfully awkward mentioning such a thing on a public forum) – i do not engage in such activities. to make it clearer, i am a virgin and would not engage in sex. I need protection from rape per say, i agree. that is not in my control. however, with me being emotionally out of control with sexuality – that is not the case. i am very firm and tell men when i meet them that sex is not an option with me. i just dont want to do it right now – have not met anyone that would make me comfortable to do that. like i said, i agree with regards to be being unable to be in control PHYSICALLY. i am very tiny as well! after all that i have been through, i do take pride that it has not lead to – crazy sexual experiences, drugs, etc.

i like this idea of self control in public. are you mentioning this only due to sexual reasons, however? do you feel the same after i told you what i said above?