Eliana

dont give up on your fellowship. The woman who left those voicemails is obviously in great pain to do something that inappropriate and hateful.  Maybe you can find it in your heart to have sympathy for her. She must be in a dark place.

Its no reflection on you — and others in the group are likely as comforted by your insight as are the members of this forum. They would miss your contributions

Im wondering if there’s a book club or volunteer group you could join with healthy people who would have a positive impact on you. I know you have major transportation issues but you have so much to give.

I hope you’re feeling better and are giving yourself a chance to heal.