Dear Hannah:

You wrote that your mother felt that you were choosing a very difficult life for yourself by leaving the cult-

you wouldn’t have been motivated to leave the cult if the life in the cult wasn’t a very difficult life for you.

Your father’s heartless behavior toward you before, after and since he found, read and shared your journal content with others, indicates to me that indeed your life was very difficult for being your father’s daughter, for one. Having a mother and a cult that supports a cruel to you father is… indeed a very difficult life.

I understand your intense attachment to your mother, your need for her approval. It is only natural to feel this way for one’s mother. She didn’t tell you that she loved you, in those last moments of her life.

Did she tell you or otherwise express to you that she loved you before you left the cult and then stopped saying it or otherwise expressing it after you left?

anita