Hello Anita,

yes i like that you differentiate the difference between living versus living with spirit.

Youre right – I have been seeing the truth recently. It has been blaring in my face. I’m sure for a long time but I am picking up on it now.

One thing I am working on this week and forward are boundaries. These are personal boundaries even amidst conversing with others, helping others, etc. Of course there is toxic people and conversations that one should cut out the best they can. But this is more regarding the people you do want in your life. It is more about me- that if I’m talking to someone about even something fun, that I don’t have to absorb the energy from the party. It’s also about how I don’t have to live with so many shoulds. I see that I feel I never do enough. If I called someone toake sure they’re okay I think okay what do I do Next. I can not sit with being content in giving just a little sometimes. This comes from the mother voice from whom nothing is ever enough. You give her an inch she wants a mile. I have to remember that just since I’m programmed that way – I don’t need to perform or react that way with others. In fact – it’s been exhausting and draining. I have recently taken a step back in exerting efforts with many friendships, as I needed personal space to heal as you know – I have found that it has been much lighter when I don’t wake up with the feeling of needing to check in with so many people. I then check in with myself more. I do wonder though how others can do this so naturally whereas for me it is conscious and deliberate. I do know it’s because of the way I’m wired and that I feel it is my job to be constantly social and available.