And the worst part is that i know the solution. To all these things. I know that she was not the right person for me, and i know that i have a future, and i know that im going to find someone, and i know i know i know. But yet, maybe because im impatient, i feel like im in a prison. Im thinking that maybe these things are not even the things i need. I also quit my job which i hated, and all the constant mood swings are bothering me. Im in an unexplainable blissful state and then im depressed again and this changes like 4 times a day. Then she crosses my mind, and im always thinking about our time being together. I really wanted her to close our relationship with a nice talk – which we couldnt ever manifest. She is giving a fck about me like our time spent together was for nothing. Im not questioning my self-worth because i have a lot of people who are supporting me – including my parents, friends, gurus online, im here for myself as wel and I KNOW the solutions. Its just, i cant take action. All i can think about is calling or visiting her to finally close things how they are. But that wouldnt matter, and i wont ashame myself in front of her ever again. Because she just threw me under the carpet, even if im a short-tempered man and can say bad things to the people i love. Feels like she never even loved me at all, and all the things she said was for nothing.