Thanks Mark. I’m trying… I don’t know if mingling on and off with friends or getting back to the gym counts but if yes then I’m trying.

Pictures will hurt, and I’ll miss the warmth I once received but I’ll go on.

My self esteem’s hurt… confidence a little shattered… want to get in the best shape of my life physically so I feel prettier and happy mentally. Somehow… even waking up in the morning is tiring and needs effort so I sleep more sometimes but I want to fix myself even if I find no purpose yet. Not many desires at the moment… many “don’t feel like it” moments. Also thoughts of “look how someone who wronged you is happy”. Missing my chirpy side (this one isn’t in my control, I think that comes naturally) but I’m trying to eat healthy and trying to be regular back again with my gym routine. Really want a fittest me. And I want to forget him as now I think of a couple and not just one person etc etc.  I want out.