OK thanks for clarifying Katie.
It sounds like you have had real friends before. Can you reconnect with them to start with? Is your boyfriend preventing you from getting out to make any sort of friends? That would be the first thing to address if the answer is yes.
I don’t have a formula to help you make “real” friends. I do know that for me that once I started being comfortable in my own self/skin, being more authentic/myself then people who I like come to me. I use to try to fit in. I did not know who I was because I worked on accommodating others. This was such an exhausting way to live. When I meet people now, I share myself and if they resonate with me then great, if they don’t really get it then that’s OK too for then I move on.
I’m sure there will be others here can post better advice for you.
Mark
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