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Anyway I wanted to thank you for making that post when you were in that situation, right now I feel the same way word for word, only difference is I’m older and I did all those things you wanted to do in the past. But being the emotional person I am, I just can’t keep doing those things, because I know the people I learn to love will disappear and that everything goes away eventually. And I realize there are things that just are supposed to be that way, and we ought to learn from them and grow and enjoy the experiences for what they are, but still, it hurts and I don’t feel like I can trust people and put myself out there easily anymore. The worst part is I’ve always been liked by the people around me, but now I can only see them as wanting something from me, and like they don’t have the same values, like they will abandon me the second it becomes difficult and I’m not an easy person so I just stay alone. And I hate that, and I think it’s not healthy and it’s gotta change, but deep down I also think it’s better this way, and that I’ll find people that get me eventually and those people will stay and that in order to achieve that it’s really better to avoid superficial relationships for the sake of not being alone. And being trapped between those thoughts I half ass all of my social life and more feelings get hurt. Btw I’m a 25 y/o male student even though I hear myself sound like a teenage girl hahaha. But yeah thanks for posting and thanks for the answers as well, maybe I’ll try meditation or yoga, maybe I can find some nice people there.