Mark,

Thank you for your advice. I am definitely in no position to be entering into any relationship with a man until I am ‘healed’, which will take as long as it needs to.

Anita,

Truth be told, I know very little about him. I have given up trying to understand him, because it was evidently my skewed perception of ‘love’ that kept me involved with such a man. My father has some serious anger and depression issues plus a ‘narcissistic’ personality. Growing up, I was often beat and then almost instantly he would apologise and the cycle would repeat all over again. My parents relationship has always been fractured. Yes, they are still married but my mother is very much subservient. His mood often fluctuates between very loving to completely cold and distant (sounds like the guy I was dating, right?).  Due to a very early traumatic sexual experience, I feel like I associated love/affection with sex. Clearly a lot of work needs to be done!

Thanks for reading.

Eliana,

Thank you very much for your kind words. I actually have that prayer written on my mirror! I will definitely look into the 12 step program x