Thankyou so much Mark and Anita for your support and insight…I’m really grateful during these difficult times. I still feel very confused but every day gets a little easier, perhaps I’m getting used to the situation, perhaps I’m trying to form my own closure. I think you are right Mark about him wanting to keep the door open for when he feels like he wants his needs met..he text me yesterday asking how I was and that he missed me. I told him I was good and I missed him too…(not a good move I know) and how was he? He replied saying he was alright. I didn’t respond, I have nothing to say to that. No word from him today, it’s very confusing and I know I should block him but I’m finding it difficult to do this, I don’t know why because it’s self sabotage responding to him. I’m trying to bring my own closure to this but I’m finding it hard..I miss him a lot, he was a best friend almost more than a lover. Do you guys think this will get easier as time goes on? I’m hoping I will get in a place where I don’t think about it all the time, it’s just frustrating as my brain won’t stop! I’ve tried cbt in the past but am looking at other options for anxiety such as counselling or even acupuncture.