Dear not-so-lost-star:

It occurred to me, about the preparation for the trip you wrote: “I had mixed feelings of excitement, reluctance, anxiety about this trip.”

About while you were on this beginning trip, you wrote: “there is this fear.. n I feel like I should turn back and go home.”

This means that home which includes living with your father means safety to you, at least, relative safety to being away on this trip. Any idea what about home feels safer: is it seeing your father daily that feels safer, somehow? Do you miss him…?

anita