Thank you, I feel like things were good while I was a child, although there was some distance with them. When I started to get older, my mom and dad became especially petty and condescending. If I made comments about a friend or boyfriend issue they would go on and on about what I could have done wrong and that it was my fault if another person treated me badly.

When I left for college it was like I went from a smart girl that wanted a good job and good husband to acting completely different. I partied and drank a lot, fell in love constantly with everybody, neglected class to sleep or party, and I know it was my fault. My parents were paying but I felt like I was doing something I didn’t want to do and they didn’t listen to any of my cries for help. They would yell at me but I was solely focused on finding that one guy.

Since then I have had some bad jobs and a failed marriage but I feel like I can get along okay with my parents now. I’m seeing now that I’m not necessarily in love with the man but he is representing something addictive and desirable to me.