sorry for second post.Sitting and doing nothing because I literally can’t move. I scratched a wound on my face. It’s bleeding and I know it will leave a scar. I felt secure for couple of seconds and now it’s gone again.  The relief isn’t coming. I feel so bad I don’t wanna live being this person that I am. I’m so tired with all this fighting and struggling, sacrificing my life to a man who treats me like shit only because I have this damage in my head, when is it going to end finally? When is the relief, do I have to destroy myself to end this and stop feeling this. I cant stand feeling all this and this person again and again, I can’t