I am trying to be…I know that hindsight will be 20/20 and I will soon see everything for what it really was.

Gosh its just so frustrating to look back and see all you did for someone, what you gave up, what could have been/what else could have happened…

Like things with Leo (will always haunt me)..seems like I always choose the wrong guy when it comes to him. :/ I knew that if I cut communication with him again..ehhh…well lets just say I knew he wouldn’t let me do it a 3rd time smh. I just was so confident in how I felt at the time. Like I owed Glen a shot at my full and undivided attention…cuz thats what I wanted from John. It felt hypocritical almost…Sometimes I feel like I wanted someone to pick up where John & I had left off; whether it made sense or not logistically.