Dear Andrew:

My summary and understanding of what you shared: you are fifteen and angry, very angry (hate) your family and you hate everyone you meet. You wanted to kill yourself for about ten years. You feel “no empathy for anything except (your) dog”. You enjoy toying with people, setting them up, framing them, scamming them, and making them angry. You feel very bored. You want friends but “just for (your) entertainment”.

You wrote about your parents: “I shouldn’t not like them they’ve only been nice to me”

I disagree with the statement I just quoted. How do I know, one may ask, I only read a post by you, Andrew, never met you, never met your parents. How do I know?

Well, I know because it is very unlikely that you were born a hating baby, and you didn’t mention having had a brain injury at five or six when you started wanting to kill yourself. So I figure, you weren’t born a hating baby who wanted to kill himself. So, I ask myself, how did this come about?

Who interacts with a baby, a young child? Parents. What happened there- rejection, I suppose. Rejection of much of who you were and who you are. So, you are hurt and angry and you want to hurt others. Hurt people get angry and want to hurt others.

Rejected people reject themselves and without vital parts of themselves are bored. Without those parts, there is no interest in life, all seems boring and pointless.

Are you interested in exploring what vital parts of you were rejected by your parents, or are you angry with me and ready to toy with me, scam me and try to hurt me as well?

anita