That’s true. I mean even though they didn’t actually starve me or things of that nature, they shouldn’t have spanked me or yelled at me. It’s sad because it seems that it is a cycle since they spanked me, their parents spanked them, etc. Though for sure, if I ever have kids I’d never yell at them or anything unless in a moment of emergency. I’d want that cycle to end.

I also think my parents couldn’t afford it, considering the situation. Like my dad is the only one with a job in our house, and he is kinda tight with money. Unless he spends it on essentials or stuff he buys for himself. I don’t have a job yet, only because of my anxiety/insecurities. Though in the meantime, I’m trying to go out more and have been applying for part time jobs like pet or house sitting. It is difficult because this is the time where I’m expected to get education, jobs, and be out there. I do want to have a social life, possibly go to college, etc, but my anxiety is one of the main things holding me back.