Nextsteps,

Thank you for reading my story. I have had a very difficult few weeks and still trying to feel better. Thank you.

I don’t know why I don’t acknowledge that others are alone as well. It does feel like I am the only one. Maybe because I can only imagine me feeling these things about me but can not fathom others feeling this way.

I am looking for someone to care and advice. What I want more than anything though is for someone to explain to me why? Someone that can really see into my life and tell me why I am treated the way I am, why I am ignored by men and why things “happen” to me. I know other people can’t do that, especially if they don’t know me personally. It seems I just have to understand why?

I am back to my goals slowly. Trying to feel better. I have thought about what you said about nature and how terrible things happen to others. It makes me wonder why them? Why anyone?

I do agree with you that some things that happen to us could be a learning experience. There are times I do believe things happen for a reason but I just don’t understand why we or anyone else has to go through these things.

I am sorry to hear that you have felt alone. I do want to meditate but I am not disciplined enough. I have listened to meditations as I have fallen asleep. Thank you for the suggestion and I will check out the one you like.

Thank you also for the online therapy suggestions. I have had not much luck with therapists but I also might not have come this far without them. I understand that I should have patience but it has been a long time waiting to even have a basic life. I haven’t given up though. Thank you for recommending a journal. I love journals.

I would love to get a dog but I am not able to have one at the moment. If someday I have my own home and hopefully be home more I can have a pet. I have thought about letting go of my one job because not only is it physically exhausting it takes away a lot of my time. It also doesn’t have health benefits and my new job will if I can become full time there. I do have to take care of myself because I am waiting for someone to rescue me and no one is interested in doing that. I feel obligated to stay with the dogs I take care of at my older job even though I know there are other people that care for them and they have good homes.

You know I can’t reject anyone including jobs. I feel a sense of obligation to anyone I help. I wonder if one of the reasons I have never dated is the possibility of rejecting someone. Dating is unpredictable and I do not like what I can not control.

I would love to have a job as a writer. One of the reasons that I thought about leaving my first job was because I wanted to start a career as a writer. I would also love to spend time drawing and painting. I have only done these things for friends and family.

Thank you for the many suggestions of people to listen to. I will check them out tonight. I am trying to lift myself up again.

Thank you again,

Lisa

• This reply was modified 6 years, 8 months ago by Lisa.
• This reply was modified 6 years, 8 months ago by Lisa.
• This reply was modified 6 years, 8 months ago by Lisa.