Dear Chris:

I hope you feel much better and soon, and that she will communicate clearly with you, in person.

You wrote: “it makes me feel used like I was good to only pick up the pieces”- if you picked up the pieces, her pieces, during “all the hell hospitalizations, suicide attempts, overdoses”, you didn’t place those pieces where they belong, in a healthy new woman, did you. Nor could you.

What is right for her to do is to be engaged in the (long, long… ) process of placing her pieces where they belong, forming or reforming a healthy individual. She owes you, I believe, a clear, in person, honest and straightforward communication, letting you know where she is at, in her thoughts, intentions, motivations.

Maybe you can ask her to do just that- to let you know, so that you can have the information you need to make an informative decision on “to wait of give up”?

anita