Hey Airene,

Thank you for the advice. Sometimes i feel relived when i know that its over just because in the final months i would see and feel and know that is not right for me and that he is not in the same level. It would be constant battle in my brain should i end it should i wait for him to say something. I was kind of miserable in the last 2 months. So thats a relief in some weird sense. But i still miss him. Tomorrow we will meet to give each other some things and in one moment Im like, yes sure im gonna be cool. In other moment im thinking that this is probably the last time i will see him. I guess that its still so fresh, i just need time.

Thank you