Yeah that is true. I wanted it to be so black and white so that the decision would be easier.

But it was very grey to me which is why making the decision caused me so much distress.
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And yes. John is the headliner on this post.

But sometimes I find myself feeling like I always choose the wrong person over Leo…even in this instance. I feel like we never had a real shot ya know.

Hunt, I hesitate because I think sometimes that he may know too much. He may not be able to look past what he knows I have been into the past 3-4 years. Its okay when we see each other every once in a while but I dont know if he would look past it. I have the least invested in him emotionally.