Thanks Anita for the advice. I really wish I could undo all the wrongs because at the time it was just spiralling out of control. I have deep sense of regret, I take full accountability of what I’ve done. I just had deep insecurities that he was going to leave like last time and I would try and break up with him to see if he really cared. At the time I didn’t even realise I was doing it. I can’t concentrate and I can’t fer it out of my mind. I have exams in 6 weeks and I can’t concerntrate or get it out of my mind. I feel like I’ve lost an amazing man, because I he didn’t do anything wrong apart from I felt I was always bothering him all the time. But if I look back it was all in my head.