Amy,

Hello, I was just thinking about you too.  I saw the paramedic who recommended this site to me, he actually asked if I checked it out. I told him that one person in particular,  you Amy, was keeping in contact with me. I think he’s glad I tried this out.  I’m really struggling but I’m here. I am thinking (seriously) about going to see a doctor. The paramedics I work with, I believe, would feel better if I get seen. They’re willing to drive me there, and pick me up afterwards. This would be in a few days, so I’m feeling really anxious about it. I need to call them tomorrow to see if they can let me know if a female doctor would be working. ughh, so many obsticales.

I had a good meeting with the paramedic today.  I sometimes see 2 at one time, other times it’s one. I feel more comfortable sharing the really tough stuff, when there’s one of them. Today is was one of them. I opened up a bit.. and feeling embarassed/ashamed but I know he doesn’t judge me.

I’m thinking of sharing everything that’s going on, someone mentioned it. I think it was anita, in this thread. There’s a lot though. I like that I can share whatever I want and none of you know me yet you seem to care.. hey, you’re even checking on me. You don’t realize how much that means to me. I wrote an email to a friend about how depressed I feel and not feeling like I can go on. I never heard from her. 🙁

I’m a little shocked at myself for sharing what I did. What if this is read by him or his friends. That would be really bad news. I question if I should have shared this? Was this OK to share?

Thanks Amy and all of you.