Hi Anita,

that’s right. I do have a feeling that these problems are somehow connecting to each other. No matter just how good this guy is, how well he treated me, i just still cant accept him, i can’t love him.

What i know is because i dont even love myself right now. I keep blaming myself. I cant love him, and right now i keep blaming myself because i feel bad for him.

I have this business & i blame myself too.

About your suggestion, i think it’s very impossible to do that. Is there any better suggestion? :((

Right now i think i will start being independent first with my own monthly salary. I think of trying to pay my own part with my own salary. Even tho my salary wont be enough to pay the house installment, but i will try. :””””