To everyone who replied,
He is very abusive and controlling. We have broken up and gotten back together many times like Anita said. I have been knowing that I needed to break up with him for a while now despite how much I love him. I knew I needed to because he hurts me a lot. I was planning to break up with him until after vacation. But he is making it so much harder to stay together. He keeps hurting me and I know I need to get out. It seems like he only broke up with me to hurt me, although we are still broken up. There is one problem. We have a vacation planned for Costa Rica with his family at the end of May. Besides the fact that it is paid for and everything, another reason why I want to go is because I reaaallly want to go to Costa Rica. I love vacation. I get so happy thinking about myself in Costa Rica. I NEED TO GO!! I have been looking forward to this for so long. He broke up with me (as I said before) but we agreed to be just friends because of the vacation. It is not just a vacation you can cancel, we have been planning it for months.
Despite the fact that we have agreed to be just friends, he is still hurting me. Just now, he sent my cousin a message saying “damnnnn” (I guess trying to tell her he thinks she is hot). This hurts me so bad. My family doesn’t know we are broken up, although I think he would do this even if we were still together. This stuff hurts me so bad. It is like he is cheating on me with my cousin. I am so humiliated that he is hurting me with my own cousin. I hate this. I am so hurt guys. Why does he have no respect for me? We have been dating for 3 years and everyone in his family believes we are going to get married (which is funny because my friends and cousins who know about him flirting with my one cousin do not like him at all and know how much he hurts me). I do believe that he does care for me to an extent if his entire family believes I am the girl he will marry. All his friends and family say how much he loves me. But how can he love me IF HE HURTS ME SO BAD. He treats me like garbage. All of his friends and family just made me further believe he cared. I want to cry so hard. I don’t know what to do. You need to understand how badly him texting my cousin hurt me. I get it she is my family, but its embarrassing. Everyone is wondering why I am with him. They think it is so weird that he flirts with my cousin, understandably. I can’t even look at him for all the times he has hurt me and humiliated me, but I want to go to Costa Rica. What do I do? I could cancel Costa Rica despite how long we have been planning it, the only real thing holding me back from canceling this trip is how badly I want to go. Also, I am a senior in high school and I would love to be super tan for prom pictures. And being tan makes me 10x happier. This may sound dumb but being tan is very important to me. I feel way more confident. I also love to travel and visit exotic places. What should I do? The only thing I am worried about is that I will get hurt even more. If I do go to Costa Rica, what if I fall back into my old place and end up getting back together with him? Should I go or not?
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