it makes sense, I knew he was this way but I still decided to be with him because he thought he could change, i should have just ended it when it was time to live in different cities, but I guess I was too innocent and I thought that things would work out even after knowing all of that. I don’t  think I’ll be pursuing dating for now since I want to live in a different city next year and I don’t want this to happen again, I hope I’m not being to radical? I now this was a good  experience to learn so many things about myself, still hurts though, I hope I don’t become scared of loving. Being friends before partners would definitely be something that I’m gonna do when the opportunity arises. So I guess this means it’s ok to still be like what im used to be? not really connecting with men unless it’s someone I can be friends with?