So I told him that I was choosing to move on and cut contact with him. I didn’t list all the reasons, mainly just that I don’t deserve to be treated the way I have been by him. He rang me and messaged me many times telling me he loved me and that he can’t imagine his life without me etc. It really got to me and where as before I’d sent the message id felt so strong and ready to move on, I ended up asking him again if we could give it another try. I feel so ashamed for caving in so soon after finally taking back some control of myself. It’s made worse by the fact that he has now gone back to ignoring me. And I feel crushed all over again. It’s been 4 weeks of pain now. What are the best ways for me to move on and cut him off completely? To try and heal my heart and get over him? I feel helpless to him atm. I can’t stop thinking about him despite knowing what a piece of shit he actually is. Why do i still want him? Its hurting so much