Hi anita,

I have been doing kind of better these days, I’ve been  trying to get used to my single life, trying to forgive and forget, and doing new things that make me feel happy for that bit, but today something happened that completely threw me off my game, my ex tried to call me. I have him blocked from my phone but I know whenever he calls me because the damn phone still shows those calls even if it is a blocked number. I know he is just calling out of habit, he is friends with his exes and maybe he thinks we can be that so he is checking to see if I unblocked him, I know it doesn’t really mean anything more to him, but still I fear that i lose all the progress I’ve been doing because my head starts playing games with me and creating hope that doesn’t exist. I’m not over him at all, but at least now i know the pain or the missing won’t kill me, but I don’t want to miss the relationship we had forever, and this just turned on all the alarms. I can’t  or don’t want to talk about it with my friends because I’m trying to fake it til I make it so at least I want to let my worries out with someone.