I was preparing for civil services. Thats when i wanted to take a break from him. The later months turned out to be devastating (my depression and all) and quit it because i couldnt focus and wanted to take care of myself. I stated preparing for another job (equally reputed) and cleared and yet to get my  final results. This was the time he was with someone else but i didnt know that. I made him also write this and helped him clear it. Few months later the truth comes later. I didnt understand why all this was happening. Im focussing on my career. Im working in a reputed place now. He too is(not the same company)

My parents came to know about our relationship 2 months back. they dont approve of it because we are brahmins and my dad doesnt like tamil and non veg ppl. he’s a combo of that. so my dream of working hard to clear civil services and then open about this to my parents is gone. And my relationship also has suffered severely. Im in total mess right now. But i wont let it affect my career. So one thing is clear. Either it’s an arranged marriage according to my parents’ wish or this guy i love. I cant go out in search of love again. My parents speak low and cheap of being in a relationship in 20s. If i talk about another guy in future they’ll only think i long for a man(take it in a cheap sense).

I have to go against my parents for HIM. But what did he do. That breaks me down. Im trying hard to not think all this now. But it’s hard not to. My dad’s a very hard working man. my family has a very good name in the society because of him, and his daughters’ achievements. I do want to live a life of my choice but theres a dilemma here. I feel living by myself would be much peaceful.