Hi anita,

Just wanted to check in with you, still feel like i have to do it, i dont know why. I’ve had some break downs probably because I’m on my period and emotions just go crazy, but still I don’t like it. His presence it’s kind of slowly getting weaker but he is still there in my mind every day, like a shadow, I feel it like a dark cloud just waiting to rain on me. Right now I think I’m in the anger stage where I feel hate towards him, I feel like I hate him because he couldn’t be the man I thought he was, because I believed in him when I was so careful with men, I think I even pity myself because I was so happy thinking that I found someone that loved me for who I was but that ended up leaving me, while lying to me and I fell for those lies. I know the way to getting over someone its actually feeling nothing for them but I hate him now, I’m even wishing he has a bad relationship with someone new, because I want to be right, I want to feel like it wasn’t me the one who was broken or not enough, I want him to be at fault, his unstable emotions, his living, his aloofness with everything, him love bombing me and then telling me that he doesn’t want to try and fix our relationship. I know it’s not like that, that sometimes things don’t work, but it is really hard to get to the forgiveness stage, I feel like that is the last step to getting over him but damn it’s hard, I guess I still need more time.