Yes.i think that I threw him under the bus a little bit. it’s definitely me…. I open up here an there it’s like pulling back an onion there are layers to a person. he knows things about me but hasn’t gotten the depth yet…Idk why but I get nervous when it comes to expressing myself or personal life outside of the typical conversation. I don know why maybe it’s from my past relationship that made me feel my thoughts weren’t valid… my ex He would always belittle me and criticize everything I would do to him. I guess I don want to pore my heart out an look like a fool afterward. I really want to though like it’s necessary if i want to move forward  but I don even know where to start???