Hi Anita,

I don’t feel if he were miserable he may come back~  If he were miserable I would feel satisfied and actually happy & be glad that he is getting what he deserves…

I don’t know why I tell myself he is happy because if I were in his position I would feel like a schmuck.  I would think I would be terribly miserable for what I had done once the newness wears off the new relationship, because it always does.  I feel foolish for not figuring this out before it happened and would love some gratification knowing he is unhappy.

I know I need to use my energy focusing on bettering myself and moving on rather than wander if he is unhappy.  Maybe it is part of the healing process.  Joining the gym today and talking to my friends about our life goals and our futures.  I will do my best to take things one day at a time/step by step and try not think about his misery, or happiness~ it won’t affect me in any way once this passes & I know it will.

I thank you for your help during these difficult few months, and will continue to post when needed and to give updates.  It really helps!!

Bella~