Yes it is.. because I want to fully experience something and I feel like I cant do that with contridictions hanging over my head all the time and if contridictions will always be apart of it..then how to I reconcile that.. my dad told me recently find my truth but whatever you do don’t be someone that says they belive and doesn’t live it out. so if I find this is something I want to belive and so far it is those contridictions just bother me I suppose at some point though they wont matter