Hi Anita,

I appreciate the reply and for helping me,

The relationship was secret in the workplace since that is where we met. Everyone knew we were best friends and spoke very highly of each other but that was it. It was not secret outside of the workplace though.. I knew his son and we went out together to the beach and museums together with my ex not hiding that I was his girlfriend from him. I met his family when they would come down to visit him and he had Thanksgiving with my family. When he was out of his apartment and waiting on this transfer ( which took about a Month) he lived a couple houses down from me in my cousins place since they had an extra room where he could stay.

He told me his relationship with his mom is not the best and that she had favored his other two siblings but the relationship with her has since gotten better. He was favored by his dad which I should have mentioned passed away around the same time as his divorce so I know that he was going through a lot. He told me that he didn’t have time to properly grieve since he is the oldest and everyone was grieving while he had to take care of it.

I feel horrible and I don’t know if the past 3 years didn’t mean as much to him as they did to me. Or if this is a psychological issue but I truly do love him and wish I could help but I don’t know if that’s just me being stupid… I can’t help but stop thinking that he is doing the same things I showed him with this other girl and calling her the same names that he called me while I’m over here feeling like I’m drowning 🙁 He was sending me messages not even a month ago with things like “I’m the one that has to live with this and no one will ever live up to your love and I will always love you” and ” I’m trying to stay out of my head because knowing that I am able to hurt someone I love is hard to realize”…. Going from that to being blocked and seeing pictures like that absolutely broke my heart. If this person truly does make him happier then I love him enough to let him go because his happiness truly matters to me but I don’t want to live with this hurt and not being able to heal from this since I never got closure. I don’t know another way to go about it since I was blocked without even  knowing why. And I’m scared of not being able to have another relationship where I could open up like that since this one ended so bad..